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"...No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main. If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were. Any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind; and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee..." -John Donne Lies. Lies. Lies. I, myself, am an example that defies the logic of the above passage. I mean, yes, I am home, whatever the definition of the word is anymore, but more than ever Im really lonely. My friends are everywhere around me, but no where near me. I don't really think I've ever been in this situation before. Oh wait, I lied. The whole year in Indiana. That was a big portion of my life where I was pretty much without people who meant so much to me. But we all know how that one ended. Well, no we all don't, but I'll just keep it that way. Im not unhappy. Just lonely. And bored. Wishing for something to come along. Something exciting. Maybe Id settle for slightly interesting. I always wondered how it was possible to be surrounded by so many people and still be able to feel so alone at the same time. But of course, we all know it is. Possible. I think Im rambling. And I haven't really been posting much lately. I have as many feelings and emotions running wild as before, but it doesn't feel so safe anymore. So I tame them. Cage them. Maybe that more people know the location of my once deepest thoughts and dreams scares the shit out of me. Did I just say shit? Yeah, I think I did.
2005-01-27 - 11:56 p.m. |
