There's a song by John Mayer that says something along the lines of "She comes and she goes like no one cares. She comes and she goes, she's slipping through my hands."

That's exactly how I feel. As though I cant stay in one place, have one thing make me happy, for a normal amount of time. As much as I despise it sometimes, I think that I cant help it. I want it. I crave it.

Most people stick with what they know they like. I, on the other hand, have no idea where to even begin.

The next line of that song says "She's always heavy into everything."

So yeah. True. Same thing. That's me. Just cant get enough. And it always seems to backfire. Either I end up loathing it or it ends up hating me even more.

But what about when I do know what I want? I just dont know how to handle it.

Maybe I should grow up, eh?

The world's not all about me and what I want.

Anyways..now I want to listen to my song. Ill be out of it for awhile. Music does that for me.

"I can't be her angel now
You know it's not
my place to hold her down
And it's hard for me
to take a stand
When I would take
her anyway I can"

2003-05-26 - 8:58 p.m.
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